Its Not Over YET

OMG! Finally! I' just finished my final paper just now, 7pm! oh Gosh! I'm so relief now!!!!

ME, Pheoric, adam, rachel, fawn and adri went to 1u then for dinner and celebration for final? haha

We JAMMED for about 1 hour. == KL.

At the end, we choose Italianese and it was 9.40 o'clock. ==

I was so HUGRY that i can swallow a cow that time, since i didnt eat lunch and my braskfast was a glass of milk. And then, half way eating, I was already so FULL!!! Should have share it with others. By the time we finished, it's like 11 pm? It was so creepy and scary man in 1u! everything is closed, so quiet. When rachel and i were in the rest room, the light suddenly off and i heard noises! So freaky wei!

WWEEEeeee!!! I have plans for my limited holidays!!!

SHOPPING! hahaha i'll be shopping the coming 2 weeks. Tomorrow, meeting Ker yi @ 1u for lunch and shopping and Pavillion. WEEeee~~!!!!

GENTING!!! Yes, I hope this time nothing's gonna happen. Everytime when my friends plan for genting trip, something happened, and we ended up not going. ==

KARAOKE!!!! I miss singing like crazy!!!!

PICNIC!!!! I wanna just lay on the grass and let the sun shines go through my shades, and just chillax!

BEACH!!!! I wanna swim and spot for hot guys!!!!

BODERS/MPH!!! I wanna spend a day in the book shop and read those books that i wanted so much yet cant afford!!!!

BAKING!!!! I'm baking chocolate banana cake for mom's birthday! and nutty brownie for mother's day!!!

MALACCA!!!! We're going Malacca for one day trip!!! I miss there!!! Ice cendol! Lok lok! Durian kuih! Chicken rice ball!!!!

PIANO!!! I need to learn a song, my mom's favourite song and play it for her on the Mother's day!!!

MOVIE MARATHORN!!!! I need to watch all the movies and series that i missed!!!!

alright, that's all for now. haha. Guess i dont have much time left huh? hahha
Oh Oh Oh!!! I almost forgot one important plan - I need to go _____ everyday too!!!!

WEEEeeee~~ So GLAD its holiday!!! even ts just 2 weeks. =)

XOXO
P.H.O.E.B.E.

Sick of YOU

Please stop looking at me as if i'm a freak.

Please stop critizing me as if you're Tyra Banks.

Please stop gossiping around about how weird and silly my outfits are.

I like painting my nails and toes. I painted my toes in blue and i like it. Is that a crime?!

That scarf of mine, DONT you ever say a bad word on it again. It's from my grandma and i like it even though you think it's "aunty" and "old".

I like long tops with leggings and whats your problems with that?!! The leggings and tights make you thought of prostitute AGAIN?!

I love wearing ballerina flats and I hate heels. So you're saying i'm not lady?!

I like the way i dressed and I wanted to feel confident when I dressed up. Just because I'm fat doesnt mean that what ever i wear is ugly. So now its a crime for fat people like me to dress up, is it? Please show some respect and dignity when I'm dress up.

For God's sake, you're my friends. Seriously, I dont get it. Why are you showing the disgusting face whenever i wore leggings?! Just because you're prettier than me, it doesnt give you the rights to humiliate me like that. I'm disappointed when you said those harsh "comments".

XOXO
Final-ing Phebs

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG!

Thank you for being my ear for a year! you deserve this! Muacks!

XOXO

Phoebe

Rain on the Parade

It just finished raining. I sat on th balcony for 3 hours. First 2 hours i was studying. Then I started watching rains. I like rain, except the lightning part. =)
I love sitting at the balcony and just watching the rains, silently. Cause for me, that's heaven.

When you do nothing but just looking at the rain, you could feel a sense of relief. I don't know about you, but i do. I've thoughts a lot. My head is clearer and my brain rise from dead. Thank you God, for the rain.

I walked out. I touched the rain and let it ran through me. I laughed in the rain. I jumped. I found joy which i've lost long ago.

Those who say sunshine brings happiness have clearly never danced in the rain. :D

XOXO

"Joy" Phebs

Pain inside

Makan @ Sushi Tei with Rachel, Fawn, Yeng, Ben, Ker yi, Adam, Pheoric and Faiz. To celabrate Yeng's birthday actually, while we told her we need to discuss some group assignments.

I think Yeng and Ben are sweet, and that make me thought of when we used to fight for popcorns in front of cinema...playing our fingers-game...dancing waltz at corridor in shopping mall...

I used to believe in forever. But forever's too good to be true. When you said "I'll love you forever", I believed in it. You broke my trust and ruin our love. 1st sem is going to finish soon, and It was just like yesterday that i lay on your side and you were asking where should we go for makan. Its been few months but it still hurt inside. Since the day you left, I have no one to go to. I stoned. I'm miserable. I dont talk. I stop joking. I stop singing. I've changed. I rejected someone. I'm building walls against people. I'm cold with my parents.

I've acted normal in day, and being in deep griefs in night. I'm glad that people finally stop asking about us, but guess it doesnt really make a difference. When would these stop?

Watched How to train your dragon, finally. Like it. Got stomahcache, when to the doctor when i got back home. Ended up, food poision. == It was the sashimi or the morning bread or y'day cold tong shui?

XOXO,
Feeling in pain, Phebs

Screw IT!

Today might just be the most happy day that happened to me in April!

psy 113 - DONE
psy 111 - DONE
psy 105 - DONE

I'm so proud of myself! Wait let me adjust the sentence. I'm so amazed of what I did!

Havent been sleeping since last saturday till today. Its 6 nights man! But of course I took nap at the afternoon la, else i'll be insane. But still, I was very very stressed and feel so miserable.

Cant believe mom called Mel and complained about me, saying that she's very worried of me for sleeping so little and working so hard. As Mel told me, Iw was in surprised and then, i felt happy somehow. Glad that mom care for me, and even though she said psychology is useless. Mel was more worried than my mom. I think it maybe she scared something like the past will happened. There was a girl studied psychology too, just like me, and she ended up in the mental hospital. ==

Please dont lie on me face! Cause I'll know when you do!
If someone is around, you treat me good.
If someone is gone, you treat me like i'm invisible.
You know how awful is that when you say that infront of me?!
What did I did that i deserve such treats.

"Hey, can sit your car a?", I said.

"So many ppl's car, why sit mine?!" ( he said, turned around without waiting for my respond. got into the car, and faster drive away. leaving me standing at the roadside.)

I was standing there, stoned basically! Did you just dumped me?!!
What kind of friend are you? You have multipersonality disorder is it? Or you have problem switching faces in front of different people?!

A guy that just dump the girl at the roadside doesn't deserve to be love. Even if he's just a friend. I helped you so much and as return, thats what i got? I might forgive you but 'll never forget what you did to me. ARGHHHHhhh!!!! I'm so angry of you, and I wanna tell it to your face!!!! STUPID!!!! Whatever! Dont you ever come to me and ask for help cause I'm gonna say it to your face that "I DONT CARE YOUR SHIT!" I'm not your living google, got problem only you'll come to me.

Went to pass up reports just now, then Rachel, Fawn and Me went 1u.
Makan @ delicious.
I'm a pasta and cheese and dessert person! WEEEEeee!!! So happy!!! we ordered carbonara, lagsana and strawvberry cheese cake. OMG their cheese cake is AWESOME!!!!!!
So regret cause I was supposed to have my 19th birthday party there but...
Well, is not too late for this year! big 20th! haha its not like delicious' gonna closed down tomorrow right? haha :P **touch wood touch wood!**
Cotton on 50% sales! I like-ky my new shorts from cotton on!

I was so angry of that person who dumped me at the roadside, so i decided to go Laundry with bryan! My day shouldnt be spoiled because of a stupid fella! As we were drinking, BOOM! Omg 2 guys are fighting! Don't know why but guess they're drunk?

Oh, so now i have a crush? haha Till now still have no idea why I did that "Roarrr" thing, it just so happened. And so malang kena spotted by rachel. hahha and now everybody think i have a thing on him! What? hahaha But it was really really funny lo! Its so funny that, sometimes when i was doing something, and suddenly i'll laughed because the scene just flowed into my mind. hahaha

Sign....Life is tough, but its what makes us stronger. Life is an undying cycle. It is a battle of survival. If you quit, you are a loser. If you fall, stand up. Life is lifeless.

xoxo,
"Carbonara" Phebs

With All Her Hopes

I feel so S.T.R.E.S.S. :(

XOXO

"113" Phebs

The Last Supper

Its an ordinary thrusday night, but an exordinary felowship we had.

We practised "The Last Supper" aka seder which what Jesus did the night before He was betrayed. I'm glad that Mel brought this up to us, to let us know its not just about remembering what He did for us buy also why.

Good Friday is the mirror held up by Jesus so that we can see ourselves in all our stark reality, and then it turns us to that cross and to his eyes and we hear these words, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do." That'sus! And so we know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves. We see in that cross a love so amazing so divine that it loves us even when we turn away from it, or spurn it, or crucify it. There is no faith in Jesus without understanding that on the cross we see into the heart of God and find it filled with mercy for the sinner whoever he or she may be.

~~Robert G. Trache

XOXO
"Fool" Phebs