Ultimate power group

The ultimate power group is coming back.

Poeple who know me, know that I love singing A LOT! Back to high school, I sang 3 hours everyday and was the champions for any singing competition, mostly.

I feel like ... giving it a try. Should I? Talked to my agent today, she said is up to me.

I want to know how good is my voice , how far can I go in a competition, how it is to be like in such huge reality show, ... but on the other hand, I'm thinking of my studies, Uni, how am I going to manage Uni's stuffs if I'm in....

What do you guys think?


XOXO
"Singer" Phebs

One last time...

这是第五次的试炼，我告诉我自己，这也是最后一次了。

如果。。。他再不懂我。。。我就安静的离开。。。

我很在乎你， 所以我只给自己一次后悔的机会。。。

不要再让我。。。失望了。。。

broken Glass

I believed that the heart was made to be broken... ...

If they tell you that I was died of sleeping pills you must know that I died of a wasting grief, of a slow bleeding at the soul...
We couldn't imagine the emptiness of a creature who put a razor to our wrists and opened our veins, the emptiness and the calm... until we do it...

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as I lived.


XOXO,
The End - Phebs

Kicked Out!

Pretty bad in mood...

My day was quiet sucks today.

Morning, doesn't really pay attention in worship.
Then, order breakfast have to wait 20 mins.
Then, was being 'challenge' by someone, about my piano skills.
Then, was 'reminded' by someone that my piano skill sucks and need to improve a lot.
Then, had an annoying lunch with some annoying people.
Then, couldn't even a peaceful nap with the heated air-con.
Then, upset about what he did.
Then, didnt really take dinner cause no appetite.
Then, once again being 'challenged' by neighbor, by having 'piano mania'.
Then, have to deal with some family issues.
Then, have to think of finding a second job to support my expenses.
Then, have to worry about how my studies goes with the company's schedule.
Then, ... ... ...

ARGH!!!! Give me a break! My brain is going to break apart!

Upset... I'm such a loser...
Been playing piano since, form 2...
And now? Just grade 5?
And my piano skill sounds like shit!!!
My weakness = could play any fast/quick/happy songs!
My advantage = can play sad/soft song that can makes people cry.
Maybe I'm kinda an emo person so... but i wanna good at fast songs too!

Felt that they don't even understand me. "Play faster! this suppose to be a lively song! play faster!" Just only know how to stand there and talk crap, you all are really 'helping'! Its my bad if i never practice the songs, but i couldn't help it if the songs doesn't sounds nice or not lively enough!!! I tried my very best! Just that you guys doesn't give a damn about that. You guys don't care about me, no one does care about how I felt. You have no idea how i felt when you said those hurtful word to me? no one cares, no body wanna know about how phoebe felt.

Will be going out with kher ye and mei thin tomorrow. Hopes it'll be a great day!
Since I had a bad day today!

别以为看不起我，
就可以告诉自己比人家强。
有多少人会关心我为何会走错迷失方向？
又要谁会替我想想，苹果为何会变烂。
其实我也曾努力争取所有人的称赞，
但你们心里自问，你们究竟给了我多少希望？
泪水已经流干。。。这世界也不会在乎。。。

那，我为何还要对你们抱着期望？

一句赞美的话。。。
一句鼓励的话。。。
一句支持的话。。。

你们都从来没给过我。为什么？

是因为我没有别人漂亮？
是因为我没有别人瘦？
是因为我没有别人聪敏？
是因为我没有别人有钱？

你们是人，难道我不是？你们会不爽被人讲，难道讲我就不用顾我的感受？
我的生命， 就只是如此吗？真的真的真的。。。很想走出去，站在那里，给车撞死。。。因为反正也不会有人在乎。。。

XOXO
"EMO" Phebs

It's FRIDAY!!!

"Friday = weekend = Sleep like nobody's business = Shopping and Foods and Friends!!!" ~Phebster

Haha, kinda hyper now, for some reason.

Bought myself a sport shoes!!! Adidas one, dont' play play!
When i was just leaving house to go to shopping with hubby, mom gave me 400$, says that i SHOULD buy myself a pair of sport shoes, since the NIKE kena stolen by some idiot. So, how could I say no for this?! And for the 1st time, I buy things without have to consider the price!!! Syokkk man! lol






LUVs the lines.


Was very into that gold-white NIKE. But, don't have my size. Damn cool one lo that NIKE.
ANYWAY, choose this. Nice too. Classic white and black! COOL :> See. It shine! hehe


The one that left with no size. SIGN.

When King's to buy my family's favorites >>>


Going S with girlfriends in the morning. then, lunch grocery shopping with the boyfriends in the noon. We'll be having cooking day tomorrow!!! Interested?



XOXO
"AdidasY" Phebs

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

I couldn't stand it. couldn't stand anymore.

This lady aka one of my mom's worker aka the B.U.G.G.E.R.!

Not that I've no sympathy. Not that I'm cold-blooded. Not that I don't respect the elder. Not that I deceive or look down on my mom's workers. Not that... Its just not my problem, the problem is HER!

This bugger just like to ALWAYS came to my house without notifying me or my family. She ALWAYS 'show-face' and my mom will have to or force to asked her stay for dinner. She ALWAYS act as if its in her own house. She ALWAYS want people to serve her. She ALWAYS talk so loud that even I'm in the second floor - my room - my bed- inside my blanket can hear it!!!

Come on?! I've got tons of works to do! And you just so 'thick-face' that you could stay in my house until midnight! How am I suppose to do my works?!! How am I suppose to study?!! How am I even suppose to play my piano with you SHOUTING around?!! What the hell wrong with you??! Don't you have ANY place to go?!!! Couldn't you just BACK-OFF, STAY AWAY from me and my house, and just LEAVE?!!!

To show my 'respect', I'm FORCE to be patient. BUT, I really couldn't stand it. I'm at the top of the FIRE now!!! SO, what I did was,

shut my ears, close my eyes, and breathe in a very loud way, and sit in front of my piano so that they could see me!

That works!!!! THANK GOD! and God, please forgive me! I did tried but just couldn't TAHAN anymore.
WATER fast! My heart had been burned out!

XOXO
'FIRING' Phebs