Appreciate II

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To: Ker Yi
Thanks so much for the present! I definitely love it! Muacks love you!

To: CK
Thanks for the gift from Singapore, thought you're still holding it for no reason?! ==

To: Jane
Thanks for going shopping with me, and that dress! I like it! =)

To: Keat, JG, Momo, Lai ping, Chun lin...
Thanks for celebrating my birthday at Chili's! Though it almost killed me ( we ordered too much).

To: God
Thanks for giving me such a wonderful and meaningful birthday! I enjoyed very much! And thanks for giving me life and chance to live in this world.


XOXO
I know you love me, Phebsy

An Email to God

Dear God,

Please tell me what to do, how to be. I'm lost. I thought I have done my best for the youth. I'm in pain, please take away this miserable.

I just dont understand why!!!!
Why 'he' can just left his shit there and I need to clean it up at the end?!
Why 'he' can just walk away from everything like that?!
Why 'he' dont trust me and refuse to pass the key to me?!!!
... ... ...

I just dont get it?!!! and yet i'm pissed! Please water me, God.

Sincerely,
Your very upset daughter, Phebsy

Appreciate

Definitely Best birthday EVER!

Thanks to everyone who make my day! =)

To: Ker yi, Ker chi, Ging, Fawn, Rachel, Adri, Faiz, Adam, Pheoric, Junn
Thanks for coming to the dinner, for the present, birthday card and cheese cake! Thanks for everything, I really appreciate it a lot!

To: pei fang
Thanks for the present, lunch,movie and teman-ing me the whole day! =)

To: Bffs - Evon, Catherine and Cai yun
Thanks for the surprise party, the choc cheese cake ( i t was yummy btw), the present and everything! =)

To: Rubin, JJ, David, Steven
Thanks for the presents! =) love it.

To : You
Thanks for the cake, present and the hugs. thank you, love you. =)

To : Mummy
Thanks for giving a life, for raising me, for suffering for me, for everything! thank you mummy! love you, as always.

To: Daddy
Thanks for the seafood dinner. For others, you're not sentimental, not gentleman at all, not police, rough, fierce, bad temper and all. For me, you're my dad; you're best dad ever.

To : everyone who wished me through fb/sms/email in person
Thanks, you lighted up my day!

This is not the end. =D

XOXO
To Be Continue...

That's effort

I ran slower than others, but its okay.
Like others, I finished my loops just that I need more time to ran.
Unlike others, I enjoy the journey by observing the surroundings and the people.
Unlike others, I jog with a smile on my face.

Been jogging for about 2 months.
I started with heartache, and breathless after running for few loops.
Now, I can jog for 5 loops, non-stop with no heartache and I do normal breathe.

Raise your cup, for my determination and my journey of losing 20 kgs!

XOXO
you know I can make it there, Phebsy

The feeling of getting stuck

Can I have a birthday cake this year, Please please please???

I'm fully booked (almost) for dec, the month of the year that I could celebrate like no body's business! My birthday is just around the corner and I have tons of dates with tons of people! Hahaha starting from this wed - Lunch @ Daorae! One of my favorite korean restaurant! My Bffs have no plans for me yet. However, I smell something fishy going on. Hopefully, its a surprise party!!! hahaha I'm in hallucination! I love my birthday! the month of the year I get to wish for anything I like, almost! hahha I love to look at a table of presents that friends gave with wishes! Stay tune for more info of my coming birthday parties!
A girl who just can't wait for her candy cane

XOXO You know you love me, Phebsy

I just want everyone to have a good Christmas. What wrongs had I did to get myself into this mess?

It was numb, till I pulled the trigger. I smell something. I sense something moving downwards from the head. I feel the world's spinning and I allow myself spin by the world.

One said : Its hard to make everyone happy; You cant make everyone like you.

Guess this saying is quiet true.

I dont understand, what's so hard about it?
I dont understand, why you don't get it?
I dont understand, how can you make it look like I cause all these dramatic events.
I dont understand, I just want to make everyone happy. Christmas is a season of sharing, isn't it? How it ended up like that?

I dont understand.

All the arrows are pointed at me, all the blame. Was I wrong? Cause it looks like I did something I shouldn't be.

I'm lost.

Can't Wait For it!

Heart every bits of it!

XOXO
You know you love me!

Dont stop me

Mom, You really need to start believing your only daughter and stop judging her every single move.

I'm not kids anymore. I get it! You just too love me and over protective, but mum you have to let go at some certain time right? Just start letting go now.

That's my dream and if it takes what ever it need to become real, I'll do it - with or without your support. I'm hurt because you're not with me doing what I like, indeed you're opposing. But I'll still move on and one day you'll see why I hang on.

XOXO
Dream, Phebsy

Hero

There's a Hero inside of me, I believe it so.

Fruitarian for breakfast.

Vegetarian for dinners.

Yoga for Mondays.

Jogging for Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays.

Time will show that my efforts worth.

XOXO
Run Phoebe Run.

Dont say

Apologies mean nothing when the damage is done. So, forget about saying sorry, because I'll remember these hurts for the rest of my life. If you're asking am I capable of that, I am! I already did for the past 20 years!

Feeling Good!

It's been almost 2 weeks and I already feel good.

I'm gonna continue this until I look smoky hot. Yes, I did said smoky hot.

You might be laughing and say OMG is this fatty hearing herself?

I know what I'm doing, and its gonna work this time, I'm sure of it.

For those guys that never lay their eyes on me before, screw you all! You're gonna so damn regret. I'm serious!

XOXO
She's gonna make it, Phebs

Guess What???

YES! I'm on diet.

Because of you. Because of what you said to me.

I've made up my mind, losing weights!

Target = bye bye to 15kgs!

Wish me Luck!



XOXO
Dont try to seduce me, Phebsy

When memories flashback, I cried

I thought I wasn't miserable anymore.

I though I had let go and move on.

I thought I was okay all these while ... obviously not.

It feels like you were just standing in front of me, and I was talking to you through the lyrics.

I kept asking God why, but He have not answered my prayer yet.

All I'm asking for is letting go what I used to hold so tightly and mistaken that was my whole life.

Hatred

Today JJ asked : Who you hate the most in this world? Why? And what could they do to ask for forgiveness?

Who: I hate those who had despite me, insulted me, shamed me with harsh words.

Why: They gave me names, make fun of me with no limits, poured water on me, locked me in the toilet, wronged me with things that I did not do, spread rumors of me... They almost killed me, not one time, two times but several times.

Forgiving them or Not: I will never ever forget what these people had done to me. I may forgot their names, but not their faces and the things they did. I'll remember them till the day I die. I'll curse them till I step my feet into the coffin. The kind of damage they caused could never repay in any forms, even they die.

XOXO
God must have hate me, Phebs

The unsual Saturday

Today might just be my favorite working Saturday.

Today might just be the only day that many had praise me.

Today might just be the day we talked the most and laugh at each other stares.

Today was the day that a hot dude asked for my contacts and spent me a drink after work.

Out of sudden, I feel good again. =)